...to rewrite some parts of the begining. Least in personal opinion, my writing has become better since I started with this. Back when I did chapter 1 for Chaz, I thought it was really good quality compared to my previous stuff. Now that I'm writing one of the last chapters, I consider that chapter1 very bad quality compared to the newer ones. I see stupid choices, ect.

Meh...


Perhaps I can use those older chapters as reminder what I should not do and as a way to see that I can improve which then gives me motivation. What I hate the most is that I can't write well enough to bring out the story as I want it. Large portion of the stories I write are from...how should I say it... "day dreaming". When I have nothing to do, I might sit down and run some sort of idle process and create more of ideas to write. It sucks I can see in my mind all the things I want, but when I try to write it, I find it being completely impossible to fit everything so that it still sounds cool. If I could draw, I'd probably be making comics.

So, I come whine here and accomplish nothing. For some reason I keep writing. Probably because I kind of feel warm inside when I notice someone has read even just one of the chapters. I keep thinking "Was it good? If it was good why just one chapter was read? Is it boring?". Not sure what people do when they read the first chapter, which is bad quality. I'm quite sure no one reads further...this is oversized too. +30 chapters is probably as long as some books. I suppose that was the idea when I started...to see, if I COULD write that much.


... meh... This whiney moaning must stop now...

1000 page views...probably most of my own visits when I check this thing daily...

Still... I wonder if anyone ever read these really. I'm such fantasy geek and my written stuff is probably too somewhat geeky. Tbh...I don't mind .

Now lets see how long it takes to reach 2000 views .

World of Warcraft - The doom of everything else.


WoW is so addictive. I have stuff almost done, but never find the time to finish since every bit of my free time goes with wow .

I don't think I have played more addictive game ever than wow.

I stopped to think for once about all the things I have written and come up with (released and unreleased). For some reason my story main characters are not really heroes...they are more like as bad as (or worse) than the villains they fight against. Seriously what is up with this?

I seem to find it very boring to write about the usual good guys. Maybe because they are everywhere. I also seem to like a lot movies that are from either villain or one of these anti heroes point of view.

Or maybe I'm just lazy. With a good guy, I'd have to stop thing more! Good guy will always consider their friends before rushing into anything. The anti heroes likely not...they just do whatever they wish and it is easier to write about. It also let's me add some violence. That is also another thing. I seriously dislike any kind of violence in real life, but in anything that is not real, I usually laugh at it .

Ehh...I think this is enough of random thoughts right now.

Oh great! So two weeks ago my computer's motherboard decided to fry itself... totally awesome!

Anyway...now I have new comp, but the trouble is that it's missing MS Word...I usually write with it...so my writing stuff is on backburner right now, but I'm intending to fix up everything. This mean next chapter's are going to come bit late...


Edit:

LOL! It appears also that my memory stick (or whatever is the right term in english) where I had backupped EVERYTHING was partly corrupted. Weight on the word "partly". But due to my habit of saving multiple copies of stuff, I managed to pull out everything out...except pictures - small simple crude pictures which I use as maps for my stories. SO! Written stuff is safe, but for suddenly losing my maps, in the next chapters of whatever I upload here, distances and anything related to it might be more or less inaccurate .