...to rewrite some parts of the begining. Least in personal opinion, my writing has become better since I started with this. Back when I did chapter 1 for Chaz, I thought it was really good quality compared to my previous stuff. Now that I'm writing one of the last chapters, I consider that chapter1 very bad quality compared to the newer ones. I see stupid choices, ect.

Meh...


Perhaps I can use those older chapters as reminder what I should not do and as a way to see that I can improve which then gives me motivation. What I hate the most is that I can't write well enough to bring out the story as I want it. Large portion of the stories I write are from...how should I say it... "day dreaming". When I have nothing to do, I might sit down and run some sort of idle process and create more of ideas to write. It sucks I can see in my mind all the things I want, but when I try to write it, I find it being completely impossible to fit everything so that it still sounds cool. If I could draw, I'd probably be making comics.

So, I come whine here and accomplish nothing. For some reason I keep writing. Probably because I kind of feel warm inside when I notice someone has read even just one of the chapters. I keep thinking "Was it good? If it was good why just one chapter was read? Is it boring?". Not sure what people do when they read the first chapter, which is bad quality. I'm quite sure no one reads further...this is oversized too. +30 chapters is probably as long as some books. I suppose that was the idea when I started...to see, if I COULD write that much.


... meh... This whiney moaning must stop now...